We've all found ourselves in certain situations asking "Why?"......"why I am still working at this place", "why am I still dealing with this guy or this girl", "why me, why today" or "why did I rush into this relationship with this person". I do believe it's just human nature for us to question things, our surroundings, our lives, the ups and the downs and the bad, very seldom the good. I don't know about you, but I grew up hearing that good things happen to good people or people who are in God's will, and bad things happen to people who aren't living right. LOL, I can chuckle about that now but way back when that shit wasn't funny. Countless times I tried to live right, so good things could happen to me and to no avail, life rendered me some nasty blows. I'm not going to lie and say I was ok with it and I kept striving to do the right thing so blessings could shower down on me. Absolutely not! After awhile I gave up and stopped asking why and decided perhaps this was my lot in life. Hey, we all can't be 100% happy all the time or live in the lap of luxury or even experience small miracles.
"When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I thought as a child, I reasoned as a child; but now I am a man and I put away childish things" {1 Cor. 13:11} Growing up I believed everything that I heard in church, everything that my parents told me, everything that other adults told me because I didn't doubt their judgement on things that were over my head. I still don't question a lot of things, but the whole "living right = blessings" deal, I can't jump on that bandwagon. I mean seriously, if one reads the Bible, it clearly says, ".....he maketh his son to shine on the evil and the good and sendeth rain on the just and unjust." {Matt. 5:45} so that let's me know right there that God isn't only rewarding those who are "good", he passes out blessings to everyone. Do you know how hard it is to try and live a perfect life so you can be deemed worthy of a blessing???
Oh my goodness, I have gotten way off track and simply ran amok! Wow, ok, let me look at the title to see what the subject of this entry is suppose to be. Oh yeah, "why we ask why". Ok, what I was going to say before everything went awry was sometimes we find ourselves in these bad situations merely to teach us a lesson. But we can 't see the lesson because we're so busy asking "why". Don't get me wrong, I personally believe it's ok to ask "why", how do we expect to get an answer from God if we don't ask "why" or ask him for a sign. Yet another thing I learned while growing up, "don't question God, just accept his will!". I'm no expert but I imagine God sometimes looks down on us suffering/worrying, going around in circles trying to deal with life's situations and He is saying to himself, "why doesn't she just ask me why?". Who knows, you just might get an answer and sometimes the answer is standing in front of us but we can't see it because we're focused on the wrong things.
I don't ask "why" anymore, I ask God to show me the lesson in the situation. Help me learn this lesson so I won't have to repeat this dreadful thing again or if it comes back up, I know how to handle it. People often ask, "why are you always so calm or does anything bother you", my reply "life is too short to get bendt out of shape over things that won't matter 5 minutes, 5 hours, 5 days, 5 months or 5 years from now; I refuse to use up my good energy on negative things". I had to remind myself of this very lesson today. I was walking, thinking and talking to myself and I said "why are you blah, blah, blah, blah, uggghhh!", after some soul searching I told myself, "stop asking & wondering why girl, just learn the damn lesson and try your best not to get into another situation like that ever again in life!"
I do apologize for going off the path that is this blog entry, I have a tendacy to go off on a tanget. I'm not really sure I came back and wrote what I had originally on my mind, but no worries, I'm sure we'll revisit this subject again real soon!
Until next time, continue to live, love, laugh and learn!
UGLYFirst
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