OK, so yeah, I thought I knew the words to that song, I even wanted to use it in my blog because, afterall it has been so long, since I've been gone, so good so sweet, mumble, mumble, wanna be, DANGER! So, to be politically corect and whatnot, I googled the lyrics and yeah! Damnnnn, wow! First of all I thought it was that guy who lives in Arizona (Ya'll gone make me loose my mind, rapper) singing/rapping that song, well, lookey here, it's Mystikal, ok cool. Then I read the lyrics and wondered to myself, "where the hell did I get my lyrics from", lol. I suppose I made my song up by half listening and focusing on the road as I drove along.
Nonetheless, it has been so long and I'm glad to be back........DANGER! Honey, I got lots to blog about, things that have happened to me, just shit I don't understand about people......hell, stuff I don't understand about myself. I've been through some stuff, seen some stuff and caused some stuff but through it all, I'm still standing!
How about I just took a break to look for a blog/journal that I kept many, many moons ago. I can't believe I still remember my username, etc. that's wild considering my horrid memory. Anyway re-reading my entries made me blush (me.....blush?), well, there is a total Eclipse happening early this morning, so hey me & blushing are not too far-fetched.
My life thus far has been like a flipping page turning dramedy, drama mixed with comedy. My childhood although from the outside looking appeared decent, but it wasn't, it was laced with low self-esteeem, painful shyness, sexual/mental/physical abuse, sexual dysporia due to the abuse, later as a teen and adult, I became a sexual addict. I will always struggle with my addiction and I'm ok with it, perhaps I will blog about my addiction. And along the way, there has been utter comedy! I have learned to not take too much of anything too serious, especially myself. Try to make a few good friends along my journey, always leave a bit of myself with everyone I come in contact with.....I'm all about planting positive seeds in the lives of others, fufill a few of my dreams, experience new things, love more than my fair share of women and pray that the Creator allows me to cross paths with my soul mate. I don't wish for a "happily ever after", I desire a chance to live my/our best life everyday.
Until next time......
forever growing in love, learning and living with a side of laughter!
UGLYFirst
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