OK, so I am a frequent flyer of the Personal Ads, I read them from my city and state to other cites and states, just because sometimes I have free time and yeah, that's how I choose to use/waste it. A few days ago I ran across an ad that I found very interesting, I thought what the woman had to say was very sweet and simple, so I decided to respond.........as I often do. Now, I don't respond as in answering the ad but more so to offer encouragement and support. Whenever I do this, the people will write back and say thanks or tell me how their process is going, which is cool because I love interacting with people whether it's via Internet, email, phone and/or in person.
So, out of my spreading good cheer I met a really cool person. I worked up my nerve and called her Saturday and we stayed on the phone well over 3 hours, talking, laughing, sharing, listening and even learning. I felt so giddy, hell I felt like Charlie Bucket......."cause I've got a golden ticket, I've got a golden chance to make my way, and with a golden ticket it's a golden dayyyyyy". Yeah, after talking to her I wanted to break out in show tunes.......she left me on a natural high! The conversation was amazing, she's a very intelligent woman, well read and versed in African-American history and others things as well. She smart and educated but doesn't make it the focus of conversation, just laid back and easy-going with a great sense of humor.
When I wrote her, I didn't plan on anything to come of it, because I do this all the time. She wrote me back, which was normal and I responded the she wanted to know more about me. When we finally spoke on the phone she told me that she had called me "the gay Candy Striper", going about ads spreading good cheer and good luck. She said, "hey, what about you, you seem decent and interesting, lol"; I am so glad that I wrote her back and told her about me. It's amazing how things happen when you least expect them.
I had given up on "looking" for love, if true love was to come it would happen when I least expected it, because I wasn't looking anymore; I had resolved to finding and making friendships. The older I get the more I value friendships and understand the need for them. I want to create a very diverse friendship circle because it would be reflective of my life. I don't require a lot, I'm not a needy friend nor am I an abusive friend. You don't have to be at my beckon call to be my friend, you are so entitled and encouraged to have your own life. I don't have to be invited to everything you have and I won't have an attitude about being excluded. We don't have to talk all the time, every single day. You are free to have other friends with whom you share things with and not with me, I am very comfortable with who I am and our friendship bond. Even if we don't speak for months if you call me and need me to be a listening ear or need me to come, I'm there! I totally understand when you meet someone you might be scarce for awhile because you're getting to know your new love interest, I'm not going anywhere, I'll be right here living my own life an hoping the best for you.
Nonetheless, I am very excited about this woman and even more excited about what can be and what will be. You see, I am a Possibilitarian, I truly believe no matter what things look like, what I'm told they are, I believe that all things are possible. I have hope and faith that in the end things works out like they're predestined to be. Although things may not work out like I hope at times, I don't give u, I might take a little break and re-think my course of action but I never give up on my dreams, goals and inner desires.
"Become a possibilitarian. No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see possibilities – always see them, for they’re always there."
- Norman Vincent Peale
I had written this entry Saturday and clicked "Publish Post" and it was gone!!! But, I decided I would re-write it and I'm glad that I did. Wishing you all well in life, love, and friendships.
As always, it's in loving, learning, laughing and living that I write and end my post......
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