At Last

At last, my love has come along

My lonely days are over

And life is like a song

Oh, yeah, at last

The skies above are blue

My heart was wrapped up in clovers

The night I looked at you

I found a dream that I could speak to

A dream that I can call my own

I found a thrill to rest my cheek to

A thrill that I have never known

Oh, yeah when you smile, you smile

Oh, and then the spell was cast

And here we are in heaven

For you are mine

At last......

These lyrics sang by most notably Etta James speak to exactly how I feel when I think of her. Because truly, at last my dream has come true, the happiness I am experiencing at this point in my life is like none other. Of course I've had some very happy joyous moments in my life, the birth of both my children were moments of great joy and happiness. Pushing out those tiny lives don't compare to anything I've ever experienced, actually being pregnant was an amazing feeling as well.

So, several days have passed since I started this post, but I remember all too well where I was going with this. Although I haven't known the love of my life long, there is something I feel deep in my heart, something that feels right, something that tells me she's the one for me, the one that I've waited for and dreamed of and at last, we meet!

I can search through every dictionary, thesaurus, lexicons, through every language known to man and still fall short of expressing what my heart and soul feels for this woman, what she means to me, how she has quietly & suddenly impacted my life. Someone asked me today, "what makes her so special", my response, "you wouldn't believe me if I told you", what we have between us is magical, innate and goes beyond the human understanding. I'm at the point in my life I really don't care what others think or feel about my actions in my life......because it's my life and I intend to life it as I see fit. Too old to need validation from the masses, too mature to worry what is being said about me (that's none of my business anyway), let them wag their tongues, fuck'em, I'm happy!

So, what makes her so special, ha where do I begin???? She accepts me for who I am, she makes me feel like I can conquer any task, she speaks to my innermost desires, she quiets my soul and excites my heart, she makes love to my mind, indulges my whims and calls forth those things which lay dormant for years. With her I come alive, with her I thrive, with her I feel free to totally be me, in her presence I shine, she held the key to my sanctum and opened it and let the best feelings flow like a raging sea that turned into a calm babbling brook. How can I not be attracted to this woman, how can I acknowledge her and simply turn away as if she's commonplace in my life? When one sees a rainbow, do they not stop and look in awe and wonder? Why do people flock to see the Aurora Borealis year after year? When people find a four-leafed clover, do they not tell everyone? Why do people all around the world get excited and show up for a total solar eclipse? Much like those things, how can I not sing her praises to the masses????

I do believe it's in our human nature to desire happiness, acceptance, love and a peace of mind, when one finds those things, especially all at once, it is special and it should be celebrated. I'm quite content with my choice to share my life with this woman, because it fits me, she is the missing piece and I have truly waited all my life for her and she arrived.......at last. Here's a song I'm dedicating to my heart, by a dynamic artist. Enjoy!

My wish for those who wander onto my blog and read this entry is a peace of mind, joy in your heart and someone who loves you & you loving them back. As always, it's in love that I humbly submit this entry, while sharing laughter in the hopes that you learned something new as you continue to live your life.

UGLYFirst