2011 Was A Good Year

It's been awhile, but I'm back. The year has ended and a new one has begun, and I must admit I'm sad to see 2011 end. No, I didn't win a coveted award nor did I win the lottery but overall my life was good even with the ups and downs. I'm thankful because I survived 2011, many didn't. I learned a lot about myself, took some changes, achieved some goals and failed on some others, hey we can't win all the time.

I made some HUGE leaps in 2011, I was courted, I allowed myself to be vulnerable, I confronted my sexual addiction, I quit my jobs.....and didn't have another lined up (that was SUPER HUGE for me), I fell head over heels in love with someone I had only known for less than a week, I moved to another state to start a new life with a woman, I gave ALL of myself to another person (something I had

 NEVER done before), I pursued things that I knew would add to my happiness, I changed my attitude about life, love and people and much more. Those leaps have enhanced my life in such a way that when I look in the mirror I can honestly say I'm pleased with me. Now don't get me wrong, there are other things that I wish to achieve, goals that I want to set and accomplish and things, places and people I wish to explore, but at this very moment all that I did in 2011 is golden with me.

My relationship, my love, my heart was cute at first then it became rocky, now it's wonderful. Now that's not to say we don't butt heads at times because we do, but we always manage to remember the foundation, the core of our relationship and we come together and continue living. Our relationship isn't based on sex, I had fallen in love before she ever touched me physically, however, she did in fact touch me, she touched my heart, my mind and my soul. You know sometimes you have to throw caution into the wind and just go for what you want, I wanted her so I went for it. Me being committed to her isn't scary to me, I want to only be for her, I only want her touch, her kisses, her sweet caresses, I want to be selfish and not share with anyone. I want to grow old with her, experience life with her, the ups and downs, joys and pains, I want, desire, need her in my life and me in her life.

2011 will always be special to me, I will always look back and smile. I'm excited about 2012, what lies ahead, the journey, the lessons learned, the ups and downs, the victories won and those that will get away. I feel very liberated because I'm living my life, my way and making happiness happen.

Always laughing, loving, learning and living......

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